I’ve been thinking a lot lately about being in my late 20’s and what that means to me. I’ll be 29 at the end of January, and I think these thoughts naturally arise ‘at the end of an era.’
Looking back at my early 20’s, I was a doormat. I did what I thought was normal, instead of focusing on my own goals and happiness. I was so quick to jump on the bandwagon and was extremely adverse to anything scary or risky.
If everyone was ripping shots, I was doing it too. If everyone was wearing something or eating something, I wanted to know about it and follow suit. I finished undergrad in 4 years, and went straight to law school, without taking a break to figure out what I actually needed.
Even though I tried to uphold this facade of a stubborn person who did what she wanted, it wasn’t entirely true. Doing things that were off the “path” gave me so much anxiety. But the moments where I broke the mold and did something that I actually wanted to do are, by far, the most memorable.
While I don’t like to live with regrets, I wish that I had thrown away what I thought was “normal” and taken more chances. Because the chances I DID take, while few, have been the most rewarding experiences of my life thus far.
Like when I kissed my husband in his garage back in 2006 to let him know how I really felt. Or when I decided to study abroad in Luxembourg without knowing a soul, then meeting one of my best friends Grace in our last month there. Going to the animal shelter on a whim, then coming home with two kittens who are my sidekicks and my furry loves. Believe it or not, I really didn’t like cats before I got them!
Taking a leap and moving to DC last year, when I had spent my entire life living in Cleveland. And finally, starting this blog in December of last year, which has brought me lifelong friends and countless opportunities to work with amazing and inspiring people, who love me for me.
I know things happen for a reason. If my entire life had been full of risks, then would I be sitting her writing about this? Probably not. I’m so thankful for the unscripted moments, especially now that I’m paying attention.
Currently Sipping: Teavana white chocolate peppermint tea