I’m sure you’ve noticed a lot of things happening here. I think the bubble is bursting on my little blog. I am super excited that I am getting more opportunities, but I’m gonna let you in on a little secret.
Like any human, I suffer from self doubt. I’ve always been kind of a perfectionist and feel uncomfortable when I don’t have much control over a situation. If you study hard, you get an A. If you work hard, you get to participate in the projects you want. Be a nice caring human, you make friends.
In blogging, there isn’t a whole lot of validation. It seems a little ridiculous sometimes to spend almost all my free time working on this space that I’m not even sure is well received. I just do my thing, hit “publish”, and then WHOOSH it’s in the universe. I get these feelings like “what if I’m not good enough” or “what if people don’t like my style” and “well I don’t really have that many followers or 100k page visits a month so this isn’t even worth it.”
Thinking negative and self deprecating thoughts is a waste of time. The only thoughts that should be going through my head are “do I love it? yes, does it makes me happy? yes.” Case closed.
I’ve seen a big surge in growth and opportunities in the last few months. I truly believe it is because I was confident in my abilities and did my best to block out negativity and competitive thoughts. My mantra has been “I’m rad, I’m smart, and I have something unique to offer.”
Nope, I’m not perfect. Do I still fall off and have days when I’m crying over stupid stuff and putting myself down? Yeah. But manifesting my future and caring less about what others might think of me has helped me leaps and bounds.
What’s your positive mantra? I’d love to hear.
Currently Sipping: La Vieille Ferme Rosé
p.s. – I REALLY do love this outfit! My kitty Jake thinks my feather earrings are his toy. I have to hide them!